Why I did it (for nico).

I did not do what I did to hurt you at all. What I thought happened to you I tried to get confirmation from a number of sources but no one got back to me. I honestly was told by what I thought was my spirit guides that you had died for your injuries from a fall down the stairs, which I was told what happened to you while was in CT by what I also thought was my spirit guide. Understand you are not the only one I talk to telepathically and it leaves me open to all kinds of bad spirits to fuck with me and there are a few that like to imitate my master guides voice and a few of my other psirit guides. I was warned in 95 that this was going to happen. You see there is a war going on for this planet, the light vs. the dark. I have been fighting the dark side for 1000's of years and so have you. They really have a hold on this planet but I threaten to anchor so much light on this planet that they know I am a threat so I get fucked with. For 3 days I was told you were in the hospital and seriously injured. This is why I went into NYC to find what hospital you were in. When I couldnt find you on the 2nd day looking I was told you had died.

I went to your moms house to find out, which looking back was incredibly stupid and I cant believe I did it. No one answered on any door. I thought you were dead Nico and I am not kidding. I now know how important I am that the New world order had me try to take myself out because I was told by my real spirit guides what happens at the end of both our lives. I really thought these guides were mine. It was really bad and I know you think I am crazy, but honestly we talk to each other all the time telepathically. I know the whole truth and nothing but it. You do too you just forgot some of it.

Just KNow this, I am not insane, I learned a very important lesson about who I am and my spiritual path and what not to do. I DID NOT DO IT TO HURT YOU. I thought you were all ready in the after life.

sorry I am so spiritually important for this planet, it really is a drag on us.
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kim


"Wars May Come and Wars May Go But Art Is Forever."

purple pain

I only ever wanted to see you laughing in the purple rain. Instead all that we have right now is purple pain. Thanks to my dumb ass.

Wars May Come and Wars May Go But Art Is Forever."

Yes I really do.

I do love you so much, I really, really do. I am sorry about what happened and I am healing myself as fast as I can. I never meant to hurt you, I never thought that this would be the outcome of what I did. I really had no idea I was hurting you, I hurt myself so bad that I lost a lot of the spiritual power I had gained these past 4 years. Things got bad for me 2 weeks before I left seattle but I should of never gone back east. I made a mistake and never want to go to CT again. I never meant to hurt you.
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kim

"Wars May Come and Wars May Go But Art Is Forever."

Adam needs Eve.

Adam cannot live without Eve, period. The whole universe needs them to be together. The are very special souls. When they get together the whole universe gets a blast of love and light. The universe and this planet especially need them to be together. So Eve if your reading this, please go to Adam, he needs you really bad.

love
kimpunkrock

"Wars May Come and Wars May Go But Art Is Forever."

My Angels and Demons

Ever since I was a little kid I had a spiritual awakening that my parents instantly tried to kill with the doses of low self esteem they fed me as I grew up a serious tomboy. I was a very awakened little kid until my parents darkness swallowed me up and tragic things started to happen to me. My parents did not have any religion or enlightenment in their souls at all. They dont even believe in a god, which is completely different than myself.

I lost most of whatever spiritual awakening I had into high school. I grew up so awkward with my mom teaching me to hate myself that by the time my 2nd year in high school ended I was Frankenstein monster. On the outside I was what everyone wanted me to be. On the inside I was crushed. My first great love was with this the boy who got me into punk and hardcore music. We met the summer before we were freshmen. He had just moved to my town with his dad. I loved him so much. But because my mom made me hate myself and my human sexuality, I was never able to tell him how I felt. It all ended tragically with him trying to kill himself over our unspoken love. It wasnt until years later after I moved back from NYC in 94 that we professed our love to each other and finally consummated our love. It was perhaps the best day of my life so far.

In 1993 I moved to New York City and I met the person that woke me back up spiritually and it was for good. Unfortunately when she woke me up, she fell back to sleep and is just now finally getting back her spiritual awakening, mostly because I keep "hitting her over the head" with the truth that she once taught me. Our relationship also ended tragically if it really ever ended at all. I left New York City and we fell apart. I left New York City in 94 to get away from heroin. When I got back my spiritual power I realized that I was here for a very important purpose even if everyone around me didn't notice it.

When I officially started my spiritual path in 1994 I realized I had some power angels and Alien friends in other dimensions. At the same time I realized I had some demons and negative aliens hanging around them. I am such an old soul that I have karma with both my angels and my demons. This lifetime is for destroying those demons and keep them from hurting the planet anymore. call it the devil if you want to but the devil and satan are not the only demons that exist on our planet. But my angels are the important part of this blog.

I have had my life saved about 9 times now. Recently in a big way with my accident in New York City this past December. Since that happened I have even awakened more than I was before the accident. I know now for a fact I am here for a very important reason and that I love a certain someone for a very important reason also. I have loved the same person since 1993. When god made our souls, he made us as one for a grand experiment to see what happens when two souls travel just about their whole existence together. Our story is a long beautifully tragic novel that doesnt have the ended yet. When I have the ending I am going to publish the most beautiful story of love you will ever read. Even better than Doctor Zhivago.

Having my life saved this Christmas has reinvigorated my purpose here in this universe. It has been a struggle these past few weeks but it has only made me stronger. I now know for a fact that I was saved for a very important reason and that I am needed on this planet for not only myself and my loved one, but for all of humanity. I am so of the light I literally want to be like Jesus, without a religion being created around me, to heal the pain of America. The United States needs an avatar like Buddha, Krishna, Jesus, Sai Baba (the current avatar in India) and the Dali lama. BUT as I said I DO NOT want a religion being created around me, I just want to impart the light of god and heal this countries pain because we have A LOT of it because of all the wars that we were tricked into fighting by men on both sides seeking destruction and profit. Every veteran of the 20th and 21st century need to be healed.

I have a long way to go before I am like Jesus and an avatar. There is a long spiritual fight ahead of me but I am up to the task. I almost died and that would of made the forces of darkness very happy. As a matter of fact I believe that this happened because they wanted to take me out. Powerful Greek god like beings can manipulate certain forces and matter to take someone out. I dont really know if this is fact but what happened to me in New York City was a fucked up fluke. Did my angels let me down by letting this happen? Hell no! They saved my life. there is a spiritual war going on for this planet between the dark and light. Remember this every time you have a negative thought or do something bad to someone. When you do that, you are creating weapons of bad karma for the dark to use against all of us. We all need to have a spiritual awakening and know that GOD is within us too. WE are children of god hence we are god and goddesses we have just been lulled back to asleep to forget who we really are. Be like Jesus if you are any kind of Christian. If you dont like religion discover the god within you because we are pieces of god and we have the same power as him. We create our lives everyday without even thinking about it. Our thoughts are creating this entire planet and the way it is going.

By using the power of light and goodness, we can create peace on this planet. Everyone needs to take part in this spiritual war by helping ever and hurting never. Our thoughts create our entire reality. make those thoughts loving towards yourself and others. By doing this we can create heaven on Earth. Join the army of light and love. Follow the constitution because it is really important and it is being taken away from us. We need to fight the forces of darkness that have taken control of our government. We need to fight them by changing our lives from a negative one to a positive one. Violence begets violence and this country could handle taking up arms against an army that could wipe us all out in a few seconds. Plus as Americans we would have a huge issue with living without things like energy and water, which happens to places ravaged by war. Our souls, all of them are all ravaged by war, from the soldiers that died to the women that killed themselves over the loss of their husbands. Past lives is a fact and people need to wake up about them. Jesus taught about them but it was taken out of his teachings by the Romans who tought they could control us better if thought that this life was all we had. Before this, even non-Christians knew the truth about past lives. Our spiritual power was stripped by the Romans.

The Romans imprisoned the followers of Jesus to write down the scriptures. The Romans had tight control over what was put in their version of the bible. So much was taken out that if Christians all found out the truth about what was done with Jesus's and the previous profits teachings, their would be a revolution. This is why the Vatican doesnt fess up about past lives and other hidden teachings of Jesus, they dont want a revolution because they are afraid of losing their power. The Vatican is in Rome for a serious reason. Jesus was real, the bible is mostly contrived to control us and throughout the dark ages the Church did control everyone in Europe and I mean pretty much everyone.

I am here as a beacon of light and I am calling everyone to be like me and be a beacon of light yourselves. Have Compassion, understanding, live in joy, be in the moment instead of worrying about the past or future, self empower yourself in whatever way you see fit and watch out for your ego. The ego is made up of all of our negative emotions and thoughts. the ego also has a good side to it and try to discover that side. The good side of the ego contains within it your self-love that most of us were taught not to have because our teachers were not taught to have self love either. It is a vicious cycle that we all need to break free of. Without loving yourself first unconditionally, you cannot love another the same way and we all need to love each other unconditionally like brothers and sisters.

My angels are so powerful and I love them so much. I humbly kneel to them for not only saving my life, but for all the love and light they depart to me. I pray to them to impart love and light to my loved one in New York City. By helping her you are not only helping me but the universe. She is also very special and important just like me. When we are together our light shines brighter than the sun and this country needs the light of our love for each other. Thank you so much for your love. Please help me so I can help my country. I love you divine mother and I love you god.

Take care of yourselves and each other,

kimpunkrock




"Wars May Come and Wars May Go But Art Is Forever."

For Eve because NO ONE will ever love you like the way I do.

Here's a couple of songs the angels play for us. I know you hear it too. I love you Eve.
-
Adam

Finally off Methadone!

I have been working on getting off of methadone and transferring to these pills that are much better for you and easier to get off of since 2002. the pills are called Suboxone and I was on them from 2001-2002 when it was a research drug. Now it is federally approved.

It is much easier to go from suboxone to nothing. Methadone is impossible to get off of and only 2 percent of the people that try make it off successfully. I all ready tried twice to get off of methadone and it didnt work. Finally when i was in NYC, this addiction medicine doctor took me off methadone and put me on oxycodones. In New York City they do this when you are on less than 50 mgs of methadone. You go from the oxy's to the suboxone.

So I took this doctor up on his offer and it was really hard. I had to take so many of the oxy's and it made me feel all strung out. The doctor in NYC made the appointment for me for the DR. in Seattle that was suppose to subscribe the suboxone to me. But when I got to Seattle this asshole of a psychiatrist decided to not take any more suboxone patients. He literally left me out to dry without a program and my methadone clinic all ready discharged me when the Doctor in NYC called them on the phone and told them what he did. They discharged me without even telling about it. I wanted to keep them on hold in case the suboxone didnt work out so I wouldnt have to buy methadone off the street. But the DR there had been trying to get rid of me since I won a case against her.

Last year I got my medical marijuana license. The doctor at the clinic tried to take away my take homes because of it and started testing me for weed. Well I fought her all the way to the top and won. It was against the clinic's policy to test for weed. She did whatever she wanted to a lot of people. She has hurt a lot of people. When I won my case she kept trying to find reasons to get rid of me. When they discharged me like that it was written up as if I left under bad circumstances, but I didnt. I never even had a dirty urine there. I hadnt had a dirty urine since 2002. This left me in bad standing which means if I had to go back I couldnt go back for 6 months to a year depending on the situation. I dont want to go back there anyway. I hate that place.

When the psychiatrist refused to prescribe me the suboxone, he left me in danger of having to use heroin. I hate heroin and want nothing more to do with it. This doctor is not a doctor he is the fucking devil. He didnt like me because I refused to go on anti-anxiety and anti-depressants. I do not believe in those medicines and they are also impossible to get off of. I all ready have the methadone to get off of and I dont want to be stuck for life on some evil pill that doesnt even work and makes your problems worse. I tried them years ago and all they did for me was make me want to kill myself and make me a zombie. 3 different times I was given psych meds and all 3 times they didnt work and made everything worse. This doctor is the kind of jerk that just wants to put people on pills and not really heal them. He also hated me because I was on medical marijuana and he didnt believe in it for PTSD, even though there are many, many studies and a lot of proof that pot is the only thing that really treats PTSD successfully. The doctor that wrote me my medical marijuana card is an expert on PTSD.

So for over a week I had to buy methadone off the street and it was terrible. I still had some oxycodones but not enough so I bought methadone to make them last. I was also prescribed a clonidine patch from the doctor in NYC and they really help take away the withdrawals. I also have Gabapentin which is a non narcotic pain killer that treats opiate withdrawal. Luckily I didnt have to buy heroin because a Doctor at Pacific medical center came to my rescue.

I went to see my doctor at Pacific Medical Center to try and get a 2 week supply of methadone because my previous doctor there wrote me a 2 week script once when I needed extra take homes to go visit my parents in CT for the holidays. But the doctor that took her place would not do it because she is not licensed for addiction medication. The govt makes it illegal for doctors to prescribe opiates for opiate addiction because they own all of the liquid methadone companies and they passed a law so that everyone that needed to go on methadone has to by it from them. The CIA brings in the heroin and then they reap the rewards by getting people hooked on heroin and having methadone being the only option. But suboxone throws a wrench in their works.

98 percent of the people on methadone cannot get off of it and will be stuck for life. You can die and have seizures from methadone withdrawal. It is worse than heroin. Suboxone 80 percent of the people can get off successfully and stay off for good as long as they go to counseling and take care of themselves while on the medication. The Gov't made suboxone extremely expensive so that people cannot afford to get on it. There are only 3 doctors in Seattle that are authorized to prescribe suboxone that take Medicare and Medicaid. To get it at the non-insurance taking methadone clinics here in Washington state it costs 800 dollars compared to 360 dollars for methadone. here in Seattle there are 2 clinics that take state insurance or any insurance for that matter and they both suck. There are more clinics in New Haven CT than there are in Seattle Washington. This is sickening. Seattle is known for heroin (black tar that is which is disgusting and I hate with a passion) and should have tons and tons of clinics just like New York City. The govt makes it harder to get suboxone because you can get off successfully and they wont make as much money off of your addiction.

So after the psychiatrist fucked me over for the suboxone, I was going to have to get back on methadone and start all over going everyday and paying for it out of my pocket. The one doctor I found that took my insurance had a two week waiting period and I was attempting to see him but I really couldnt even wait a week.

Anyway as I was seeing my Doctor at Pacific Medical Center, she told me there was a Doctor there that prescribed suboxone but he wasn't taking any more patients. She finally agreed to prescribe some medication to help my withdrawals so she went to the nurses station to look up medications on the computer. Well while she was out there she spoke to the doctor that prescribed the suboxone. She sweetly pleaded my case and he decided to take me on! I saw him today! I pick up my medication tomorrow!

This Doctor is an angel. I am so excited! I am just waiting for my insurance to approve it and I am on my way. Even if they deny it at first, I will pay for it out of my pocket until I appeal and win my case because basically instead of paying 400 dollars for my methadone they are paying 400 dollars for the suboxone, which in the long run saves them money because I can get off of this medication!

After a 8 year wait I finally got the medication I need to free myself of opiate addiction. I all ready took care of my head and heart and will continue to do so. I just now need to fix my opiate receptors and this is the pill that does it. No other pill actually fixes the opiate receptor, this is why the New World Order hates these pills. Suboxone defeats the vicious cycle of heroin and methadone. It saves lives because being trapped at a methadone clinic that will kick you out for no reason is very scary. I was kicked out at one clinic here in Seattle because my counselor made a mistake. I had been clean for 3 years when this happened. It was fucked up and I should of taken them to court.

I really stoked because in a year I will be off of these pills too and finally free and I mean FREE! I can travel when I want to, take off on a moment's notice and not have to worry about my methadone or the clinic.

This is the beginning of the end of my nightmare addiction to opiates. Thanks to divine mother for coming through for me, I love you so much and I am here to serve you, the light, humanity and Nico until my dying breath and beyond. I pray to divine mother to have everything with my insurance go through. I really need this chance and cant really afford to pay for them on my own. Thanks to my angel doctor at pacific medical center. i will never forget this.

PS. At Yale New Haven Hospital on was on these pills when it was research. I did so well that the doctor kept me on for a year and a half when it was only a 6-month to a year program! The nurse said I did the best out of all her patients. I did not even get sick from the blocker that is in these pills. When I relapsed in 2002 I walked off the program I was only taking 4 mgs! I almost made it to nothing but because I wasnt getting counseling I relapsed. Since then I have sone intensive counseling at a couple different places and I still do! So I KNOW FOR A FACT that I can get off of suboxone, but I cannot just get off of methadone. I am beyond stoked.

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kimpunkrock




"Wars May Come and Wars May Go But Art Is Forever."

"Wars May Come and Wars May Go But Art Is Forever."

All I know is this....

All I know is that I love you.
All I know is that we go deep.
All i know is that I cant live without you,
one way or another,
I cant live without you.
I carry you just as much as you carry me,
I made a mistake and lost my mind,
I really dont know what happened to me in NYC and CT
but it wasnt good and I lost all my power, strength and will.
I was swallowed up by my PTSD and almost took my life.
I was tsick of this body,
sick of being without you,
sick of waiting for the future,
sick of not being able to travel freely all over this planet,
sick of not being your angel.
sick of this body.

I didnt mean for this to happen and I really dont remember at all what really happened. I had a breakdown all because yes i have serious issues with my parents and CT and they are deep. I can never go there again. The only thing on the east coast that I care about is you. It's hard hearing your voice in my head. Do you think you're the only voice that talks to me? Unfortunately your not and I get fucked with all the time by angels and demons. Your the only one I wanted to telepathically communicate to but I am so powerful and my channel is so open that I can talk to just about any soul I want to in spirit, but this leaves me open for beings that are not working for the light to fuck with me. Believe me I may have PTSD but I am not crazy. My life is the x-files times 100,000.

I am sorry about what I did, I had little to no control over what was happening. It scared the shit out of me because nothing like this ever happened to me before. I always have control but something happened to me on the east coast at my parents house. I completely had a PTSD blackout. I should not be alive right now. I now know that I can never over-dose, divine mother, god and my angels will not let me. As a matter of fact I cant die until they are ready to take me. I am so important and I am needed on this planet so bad that many, many, many times has my life been saved, esp this last time. I should be dead.

I am glad I am not dead because I didnt want to die, I have no idea why this happened. One thing is for sure I am still alive because of you. You need me on the planet also. One way or another you need me here too. I know this is a fact because it was the first thing that I was told by the avatar/angel that saved my life was that he saved me because of you. It's deep. He also saved me for the planet and myself but honestly I know the truth and it doesnt matter that much whether we have a body or not. All my heroes are dead, except for you. All my soul mates are gone, not on the planet right now. You are it. You are the only one left so I am utterly alone.

If you want to communicate with me, be positive, tell me you love me, dont be mean because I couldnt really handle it right now. I go crazy without you having the courage to be honest with me. its all I need is for you to tell me with your body how you feel. I hate to say this but I know you love me, dont lie, it doesnt matter that you have some joyless love affair happening. All that matters is the truth. PLEASE tell me because your hurting me and I dont deserve it.

I need my purple heart.
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kim


"Wars May Come and Wars May Go But Art Is Forever."

The Spiritual War-The Frontline is everywhere. Chapter One

The Spiritual War-The Frontline is everywhere.

By KimPunkRock

Chapter One

It's a spiritual war, first and foremost. The most important part of this war is the spiritual part because it is the one that sets up and puts into place all the rest of it, everything that effects our lives. It is no coincidence that at an early age we are taught to NOT love ourselves and to treat each other like dirt. The Holy Spirit has left the planet and it has nothing to do with any religious manipulation from the bible.

Many people will try to deny the truth when they first hear it because of the spiritual war. Picture a demon in the spirit world behind the person denying the truth telling them not to believe it and you will get a dramatic picture of what one level of the spiritual war is about.

In order to more easily understand the spiritual war you have to understand the TRUTH about reincarnation. Up until Christianity took a fascist hold in the early middle ages, reincarnation was a way of life. it was well known that this life was not all that their was. Many people would hold posts due to the post they held in a previous life. Nobody thought that much about it until the 3rd century AD when a Roman Emperor after Constantine decided he could control the population easier if he outlawed and wiped out the truth about reincarnation. he figured that if people thought that this life was all that their was, then he could control them better because people would not want to lose the only life they think they have. It was then that the intense manipulation against the truth began. He had every mention of past lives in the bible stripped from its pages. Christianity from here on out became a literal "prison" religion. It was used by the elite of the time to manipulate people into servitude and it worked.

But the knowledge of reincarnation and past lives survived through eastern religions and the wisdom passed down within tribes. As most of the population of the planet was tricked into thinking that this life was all that their was, the ruling elite knew damn well about reincarnation. It is ONE of the reasons they have always been so obsessed with marrying within the same bloodlines-it gave them a better chance to incarnate within the same MONEY circles in order to stay in power. While the rest of us were being manipulated these shadow souls were keeping the truth about reincarnation to themselves. They knew the power the truth gave them and they did not want to share it and as time when on, when one of us would wake up, a literal war would start over it. The shadow souls as I like to call them have been manipulating our souls for a very, very long time. This drama does not just play out on the earth plane, but on other planets as well.

Most of us born in the United States today are old souls. I know that my soul has been here since the beginning, since the Garden of Eden and even before that. We are the same creators that once created everything on this planet moved by the god within us to create heaven on earth. I was told by a channel once that I was one of the souls that created sun flowers. Since my whole life I had been surrounded my sunflowers and there was no way for the channel to know this, it made complete sense to me.

We are way more than you can even imagine. We can literally create what we need and want out of thin air, if only we can take back our power from the forces manipulating us from behind the scenes. There is so much to the spiritual war that it would take blogs upon blogs to explain it all to you and even then I would not be able to even tell it all since I dont even know it all yet. But I do know a lot more than most people. It is my purpose this lifetime to fight this spiritual war on stage instead of behind the scenes. It is really important that those that know how to fight this spiritual war for the light need to start getting afoot with what needs to be done.

This is the end of part 1.


"Wars May Come and Wars May Go But Art Is Forever."

The Truth about the CIA and Heroin.